Oh FOX news...

fox attacks obama...

"fair and balanced"?

Vote Different

Wow. Obama'c campaign takes no responsibility for this-- this is what can happen when people take it upon themselves to advertise for candidates... have you seen The Obama Girl video? or hott4hill? its something really interesting that has taken off for the upcoming election

Bacardi Mojito Ad

So this is borderline one of the best alcohol ads ever

Can I just title this one: Boy?

1) I did Capital tours with the hottest intern today. His name is Jack and if he shaved his beard thingy he would be GORGEOUS. Oh my lord. I deff went back up to his office after the tours with some lame ass excuse about dropping off papers mmmhmm
2) excited for Chris to get back just bc i havent talked to him in a while and I am in need of some booootay. :-P Chris is the airforce dude that has been on leave for 2 weeks visiting fam. You know, the one i refuse to admit I like. haha
3) not going to lie though.... Jack is hotter than Chris.. and is from the midwest. good lord I <3 DC

Dance to Inspire, Inspire to Dance

Music: Apologize By: One Republic
This Is one of my favorite Songs, and one of the best dance videos I have ever seen

I am Obsessed with This Dance

So long long ago...

... I found the perfect guy.. I am just not sexually attracted to him...

but we did talk for a long time tonight and he informed me what my problem with relationships is... I don't let people in, I dont like to talk about how I feel about things, I dont like to admit weakness.

Just something to think about.

I just <3 this like madd.

Alright. It Is Official... I have Issues

Airforce Boy? He is too nice. Isn't that what I said about my golf boy a few months ago? yeah.. it is.. but now I kinda want him back.. not really, but kinda. Im rambbling.....

Now. He is sweet, he calls me and texts me alot.. but its too much too soon if ya get my drift. I want that little hard to get, little difficult.... I mean for god sakes.. So far I have gotten Airforce boy to give up smoking (bc its gross), sex (bc there is no way I am doing anything with him... 2 months? i dont even like him that much... NOTE: he agreed to this!), and swearing...

I have no real reason behind swear. Ijust find it amusing that he censors himself that much around me. haha I told him "Don't swear around me, at school the boys would never swear in the presence of girls so it really makes me uncomfortable to hear cuss words." god. this is too much. I am horrible. Is this my way of amusing myself?? haha yes.

also he keeps saying things like "i'm going to come up and visit you next year. i want to see you next year. blah blah blah" NOPE.

Airforce, clubbing, and Johnny

So I met at boy that is in the airforce at a lounge on Sat night with one f my friends. She met this other kid (johnny). Johnny got us free drinks all night, He also hooked up with my friend and told her he had a bf after. how horrible is that?

The kid I met is cute and seems liek a nice guy. (how can one tell after only knowing him for 2 days!?) He is coming over tonight but I have two problems already. Keep in mind that of course I have problems.. its guys.. I always have problems.

1) He is in the airforce. I know it is admirable.. but I cant get over the fact that he didnt go to college...
2) He isnt preppy. I am in <3 with Ralph Lauren Rugby, Lacoste, jcrew, Polo... ect.. and he didn't know what the Ralph Lauren symbol is. I bet he couldnt tell the difference between a lacoste polo and a nike t-shirt. am i being shallow? yes. do i know it? yes. Why does this matter to me?

The Hall or The Hill?

Well I am officially into week three on The Hill. Interning is amazing. I have gotten to attend the most amazing conferences and briefings. The best briefing I have been to, by far, was the one on China’s economic success and its implications for the rest of the world. I have also been to talks on US- South Korean free trade, Passport back-up, the plight of Muslim women and reform minded Muslims, CBC and Colombia’s president Uribe, EU 101, and a human rights double standard in Saudi Arabia, Uzbekistan, and Iran.

The human rights one was amazing as well. I feel like I have learned more in the past 2 weeks then I have in the past few months at school. That is an interesting feeling bc I am paying to go to school and being paid to be here… kinda ironic, don’t ya think?

The District of Colombia Meets Me.

So.

I have finished week one on The Hill.
It has been amazing and it has been stressful.

So I skipped my first day of work at Starbucks... too stressful to do it all. I couldnt pull 55 hour weeks at the Capitol and then go work on the weekends too.

I really miss my friends and family at home. It is weird having my own apartment although it is so pimp. It is in an awesome location and it is pretty big. My roomate is my friend he is gay.. its kinda like Will & Grace but I am more of a Karen. haha

For my roomies b.day oin friday, we went to a gaybar... it was the most interesting and different experience of my life... everything was just fine and dandy until i totally got groped and hit on by a lesbian. lol that was mad awkward. I dont think I am all about hte clubbing scene... I dont like being all hot and sweaty and gross, I think i prefer the Bar scene. (aww i miss zapatas)

Wish me luck for week two starting manana
<3

Some More Randoms about 中国

Alright- I was looking through my pictures and I have a few other randoms I want to write down to remember...

-Z.Cut giving a prostitute 100 kuai and saying "go home and respect yourself tonight" haha

- OMH, Z.Cut, and "barone" kid missing the bus to the airport the last day. classic.

-our adorable maid who always gave us extra chocolates and packed for us

- watching Girl Interupted on HBO at 3 am bc we couldn't sleep.

- Judy's the last night. enough said.

- all my guys meeting our Brit boys.. awkward!! "theres tom's american!"

- amazing continenal breakfasts.... "maybe i can use my chinese language skills to get you into breakfast"...9 chefs at stations at the Hilton. (btw- PARIS IN JAIL! THATS HOT.) <3>

-sick plane ride there..

- hunag hitting on the stewardess. hahahaha "i like to trick people by changing my accent"

中国 (aka China)

Yet again, It has been a while!! Well, I just returned from China a few days ago and it was the best 10 days of my life. Here are the highlights

-Making it to the unrepaired part of the great wall... only 7 of us or so did make it.-The US Embassy and talking to the foreign service officials about their personal lives and what it takes to get into the foreign service

-"Barone", one of the guys did not see the space inbetween Bar and One so he kept calling it Barone the whole night. haha

- As we are walking by the South Korean Embassy the "barone" kid screams "I love Kim Jong Il!" idiot.

-The 25th b.day of a grad student at Zapatas..... and the Grease Mega Mix... which brings me to my point of.... we really give Asia the wrong impression of what is cool. When we, as Americans, rock out to the horrible music played at the bars (i.e. Grease Mega Mix, Kung Fu Fighting, Pretty Fly for a White Guy, We are Family, I will Survive, Cotten Eyed Joe, Numa Numa... ect) we make Asians think that is what is "hip" in America. NewsFlash: Its Not Hip, It never will be hip, It never was hip. moving on.

- "Your Song Bar"- we think it is going to be a kareokee bar so we go in all excited and there are a few prostitutes, 3 old creepy German men, 2 american chinese men all in this bar sulking in corners looking mad shady. We got the Sino-American men to translate "let me love you long time" exactly like that for me. haha

-Another night, we were looking for a good bar to go to in Shanghai and we decided to stop in this place that had a ton of people and loud music thinking it would be a good time. We sit down for a beer and realize that the bar is really lame... so we decide to dance... I get pulled up onto the bar and given sparkelers. I am dancing with 2 middle aged Chinese women on the bar. Yes, after that moment, my life was complete.

- After going to the dud bar, we decide to go to Judy's which is on the other side of hte Hilton. We get in there and start tearing up the dance floor right away. We owned that place. Prostitutes, business men, foreigners, locals... everyone was looking at us and coming up and dancing with us. It was "barone guy", this other girl, and I. The girl and I got our picture on the stripper poles on the bar. YES. We are all having a blast and just drinking and smoking (yes, i know.. mad gross.. it was the environment though). The guy started getting a little flirty with me and i could tell that it was going to be a long night. more thoughts on that subject later, maybe. This was the second best night in China. "Barone" walked me back to my room bc i was very very intoxicated.. I woke up the next morning still drunk and had to go to SIP.

- BYE FAR the best night in Shanghai was the night that J. and I decided to go out. The guys on our trip were supposed to call us to go out and never did so we decided to make our own fun. We went to the most amazing cuban resturate across the street and had margaritas and sangria. We then decided that there was no way in hell that we were going back to the Hilton so early so we decided to make a night out of it. SO. J. was nervous b/c she thought that 2 girls going out alone was going to end poorly but I contended that I was sick of females being looked at as weak and that we could take care of ourselves just fine. This was an amazing decision bc well.. read on.

So. We go to Zapatas (our favorite Shanghai bar). We ended up @ Zapatas almost every night in shanghai bc it was so much fun. Not 5 minutes inside the bar doors, I am pulled up onto the bar.. wearing a miniskirt none the less. I dance there for a while with some weird guys from Spain and I get down. J. and I then just go to get more drinks @ the outdoor bar and we end up talking to someone that was from Virginia, someone from Wisconson, and someone from Italy. After we finished talking to those people... I heard the most amazing accent coming from a boy ordering at the bar the same time we were. I turn and look and he is very very very good looking... NOTE: not hot but just an amazing looking person. Lets call him Manchester. Yes, he was from Britian. We talk to him for a while and meet his friends "American Simon" and Max. We all talked for a while, hten J. and I ran to the bathroom and promised to meet "AS" and Max on the dance floor.

Well, it turned out the bar was too crowded to find them so we just ended up finding a space on the floor to dance and staying put. This was also a good decision bc we met ANOTHER british boy. We will call him Noble. (The Blonde One)We are just laughing and dancing all silly with him and he begins to dance with a girl he was friends with. I was disappointed bc he was gorgeous but whatever life goes on. So i turn around and start dancing with J. and all of a sudden I feel someone come up behind me and start dancing with me. It was Noble and he had his head right next to mine and his whole body pressed against me. (which i was 200% fine with!) I looked over to make sure I hadent left J. stranded and she was dancing with some French guy (his pick up line was "hello. i have a girlfriend. but will you dance with me?"haha) So I figured she was fine. Noble then brought me upstairs, which was closed off bc we were reaching Last Call time.

We end up in a booth and he kisses me. We were both so hot and sweaty from dancing and being around so many people. He pulled me onto his lap so i was facing him with my legs on either side. (it sounds so much worse than it was!) He takes his hands and holds my face/neck and says (in the beautiful British accent) "you are just stunning." Bam. I was hooked. haha I pull away for a moment so I oculd put my hair up and he says "I could do that" and pushed my hands away and runs his fingers through my hair. :) so we make-out for a little while. Then he pulled away and started laughing. "what?" I asked. and his reply "oh, just your accent it is so hot." which was interesting to me bc dont the british think we butchered their language?? I began kissing his neck and by his ear. as soon as i did that he instantly asked me to go home with him.. I know you are thinking I did it.. well NO. I didnt. haha Not a minute later we have a flashlight glaring at us and it was a bar staff member telling us we had to leave the top floor.

We go downstairs to find Jen still dancing away with the Frenchman. Noble and I continue to kiss and hold hands and what not. We then go outside bc the inner bar closed. We start talking: American Simon, Max, Manchester, Noble, J., and I. Noble would not let go of my hand or my waist. It felt nice to have someone like that just want you and think you are pretty, even if it is only for one night. Noble took out a cig and I made a face. "you smoke?" I asked, forgetting he was european. "of course love." he replied "but if you hate it so much I won't right now" "Thank you" (kiss). J. and I then realize that we have to be up in 2 hours to attend a meeting with the Shanghai Institute of Foreign Trade. We say goodnight to the boys and walk to a cab. Noble hails a cab for us and pulls me in and kisses me, takes my number, and asks again if i will leave with him. "i am not going to fuck you tonight. you know that right?" i ask "you may want to go in there and find some girl that will. dont waste your time standing here with me" he looked rather shocked that i was so blunt and said "dont put yourself down like that." kisses me again and promised to facebook me the next morning. Best Night Ever

-More China to Come

Obsession of the Moment--Stay Tuned

Entourage. I am going to marry Adrian Grenier. Game Over.

It has been a while since I have written in here.
-D.bag and the nympho allegedly had a threesome with the PMSPresidente. Gross? He came over to "pick up PD's chiense wkbk to copy" but ended up staying for an hour to talk about it. He can be such a woman. I wanted to be like "You wanna hug it out?" good god. I'm starting to get over him... the respect is slowly falling.. BUT I still want his attention. I am not sure whats up with that.
-I am ready to leave for China.
-I GOT MY INTERNSHIP IN DC THIS SUMMER!
-Im sick of couples. I will bitch about them 24-7 but secretly want a relationship. Oh the joys of being a girl.
-I got yelled at for Denim today. I bought 3 pairs of 7 jeans, 1 pair of Rock and Republic, and 1 pair of Chip & Pepper. <3

Mutual Usage

I feel so accomplished. I have done sooo much hw the past two nights. Its crazy

I had an apathetic convo with d.bag during the day.. then cracked and talked to him to him tonight. It was good and bad. lol

Im going to hook up with Hulk tonight. (thats what my suitemate calls him.. the hulk. haha) He is a huge manwhore... but i guess it is alright if we are BOTH using eachother. haha right? reassurance would be grand!

Im Soarin', Flyin'...

...there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

-so im done with the d.bag... for today. :-P
-My friend Dona may be coming to China with me next year. Its good and bad. Good because It will be amazing to have another girl there to hang out with so I wont have to rely on the boys, bad bc the boys dont like her. I'll see how much I can take. This girl has been nothing but nice to me so Im all for giving her a fair shot.
-had to give a statement for the sorority today. :( good lord I dont want to be involved.
-I want a vespa. I wish I knew what the regulations are for moped in China. Can a foreigner get a drivers liceanse??

Lets get excited...

I GOT MY FIRST BLOG COMMENT!

haha I know. you are as happy as I am. :-P

Its Three AM and I want to go to beeeed...

...I've got this lady.. runnin through my heaaaad. -O.A.R.- (amazing song)

So- It is actually 4:01 am and you know what? I'm apathetic to D.Bag. I can't stop thinking about China next year. It's going ot be so much fun! I was reading a Blog on here, ChinaDirt, which talks about the dating scene over there.. doesnt sound much better than in Good Old U.S. Of A. but hey- change witll be good.

Just finished anEnglish paper, had a hilarious convo with a Russian exchange student, and looked at smartcars and mopeds online. Ohh College.

There is Beauty in the Breakdown.

So it has been a few days. Bullet points of randomness-

-D.Bag told me that "i should probably get over him or else its going to be a long year in China." Wow. Self-absorbed much? This was after I saw him holding hands drunkenly with a girl on my floor. cute. If there were no mixed messages this owuld be easy but the boy likes to keep it so I always think I have a chance. F-That. I have 6 months until China. So 6 months to be around all american boys. Im taking advantage of it. Then in China- I am going to def take advantage of the situation over there. I'm sorry d.bag but you better get used to not having me around or else its going to be one lonngg year in China. :-P
-Sorority hit the fan. Dont want to post all of it, but hazing investigations? good god.
-Confession: yestrday I was so hung over I didnt get out of bed until 9:20 pm.... and that was only to shower so I could go out and drink again. :)

Come Out Virginia...

...dont let me wait. The catholic girls start much to late, ohhh but sooner or later it comes down to fate....

Yes- I'm willing to admit... I like being angelic. I like not doing to many things wrong. I like that when I do something wrong, people notice- people gte concerned. The pills and alcohol? I had everyone worried. The eating issue? People up in arms again... the difference is.. I know I am a good kid and do not f-up often. I know tha tI am okay so it can be funny watching people freak out. And then you reach a turning point....

The turning point was when the freakouts became constant and annoying. I cannot take listening to PD yell at me and threaten me. I do not have any dependency and addiction problems with ANY of my vices... I have to pretend like I understand. I have to pretend like I understand where he is coming from and have to pretend like I am genuinly concerned for myself. I think that I play the part well. I think they are all convinced. They are convinced that they have convinced me that I have a problem... the difference is.. even if they do not know it.. I am still winning. I do not believe a word they say. Is it horrible not to trust your friends? I do not trust a single one. Everyone besides possibly PD has betrayed me or hurt me in some way... and once you have done something against me once.. I will remember it. I hold grudges. Flaw. I got it. That.. right there.. that is considered a problem. The other things are just me being young and crazy.

In the begining there was....

A girl.

And this chick was hella frusterated with life, sororities, boys, the United States, dorm food, some friends, some family, some mirror images, fatigue, and boys. (yes- boys twice just for emphasis)

So- I dropped my sorority. Health. China. Sleep. School. Love. Life. There are my reasons.

So heres the thing. This is for me to be honest.... but not too honest. Im not one of htose people that wants this to get me in trouble later in life...

Lets start with yesterday- so i dropped...yes.. and i found out that im going to China. I am studying in Shanghai and teaching english. Amazing? yes.. but of course there is a problem.... The company i will be keeping while im there. we have.. 1)me 2)random girl #1 3)random boy #1 4)nympho 5)douchebag #1 6)pseudo-dad (PD for short)

Nympho I can take... he is funny and will be annoying after a while but not to bad. the randoms are fine.. PD is going to hamper my fun i know it. just wait... and then there is d.bag--> you better believe there is a history there.

Yes. i want to hook up with him again. I cant deny it. Yes. i want to stay best friends with him. Yes. this is a problem. We talk about hooking up again after a few drinks.... but sober i dont know if he thinks about it. Hell.. I do. haha Maybe he does.. Now before you go writing prescriptions for what to do.. you have to understand that this is no ordinary boy. Lets start here: he doesnt like sex. Is there more to add here? Oh yes there is--he has slept around. That secretly bothers me but I would never tell him. He may already know. I dont do that AT ALL but i dont want to judge. (although i do) I know that if anything ever happened between us, I would constantly feel uncomfortable that he would be comparing me to other girls he has been with. Yes, I know. Dumb. I'm 19. Im allowed to be dumb about some things. At the same time- I feel more comfortable with him, more so than any other guy I have thought about hooking up with. Why is this? Why do i have to feel safe with the one person who is most likely to hurt me? His selfishness is ridiculous... and I know that he would always put himself before others (friends, gf's everyone) but I keep hoping htat I might get through to him. wishful thinking.